Sister

I am so tired today. I have been so stressed out lately, I am scared of getting sick, etc. I need some time to recuperate from all the emotional stress of the last while.
Unfortunately, I, like most people in America, don't get the time off that it takes to really stay healthy and strong, and am a slave to the corporate dollar.
I think I will need to take a day off soon, regardless, even though I have already used my time off for the year, with a bout of flu a few months back that knocked me on my ass for about 10 days.

Still no email from A, but I got a nice email from his Sister, (my soul-sister), saying sorry she hadn't been in touch, she's been sick, hasn't abandoned me, and that she spent time with A at the weekend, and kicked his ass. I wish I had been a fly on the wall, or not. She couldn't believe that he hasn't been in touch with me for over a week now. I do wonder what was said. I did try and fish a bit for more detail on what she said, but didn't want to pull her too much into this whole thing, that's not fair.

I recognize the need for us to back off, of course, I'm not stupid. Despite what reading this blog would make me look like, to somebody that doesn't know me.
But it is still very a painful thing, after 5 months of contact every day. I doubt I won't be hoping, waiting for an email for a long time to come.

I hate to find myself stuck in this emotional mess. I can only accept it for what it is right now though, and know that I will move through it eventually, and emerge stronger.