Exhausted

It's been a tough week, I am exhausted, and am ready for a 3 day weekend. Hopefully one of those nights will be in my 'own' bed at Husband's house! I could use the sleep... Not been sleeping well at all. And I miss the cat like fucking crazy...

This morning was a dream about A. I was at some huge party, a city block sized party, out in the street, and I kept running into A everywhere I went, and was ignoring him. He was getting a little freaked out that I was ignoring him, and kept putting himself in my face a little. Nothing overt, just subtle.
It was A from a few years ago, before we had our 'thing' and he had gorgeous long hair. He cut it off a few years ago.
I woke up all disturbed by it. I hate that. I have been doing fine, in my getting over A though. That is awesome. Deleting all those emails, Facebook, etc, really helped. I am done, but still a bit weirded-out by dreams like that.

Husband came round for an hour last night. He left again about 8, which was tough. Wednesday night we fooled around a bit on the living room floor, and it was really lovely. I think I am starting to feel my attraction to him coming back again, and I am SO fucking glad, and happy about that.. I want my life back!!! I know it won't ever be what it was before, we've both grown a lot, but I think we can have the love back, at least. I hope so, I realize finally what a total heartbreak it would be to lose him!! Something I would never get over so easily as I got over A!!
If you are contemplating having extra-marital sex, be warned. The pain and devastation is horrific. That's not a moral thing on my part, just now spoken from experience. It sucks. Utterly.

I feel like I just got away with murder, and am so very, very grateful and feel pretty undeserving!!!!

The icing on the cake being I have a stress-induced yeast infection at the moment, and bought some cheap generic Wallgreens treatment for it that felt like putting fucking napalm up my pussy. I was awake with that all night, too! Ugh... No fun. I hope I am recovered enough for some fun with Husband at the weekend! At least I am happy that I am looking forward to that!!