Delayed

I have delayed getting my tattoo. I just wasn't ready. I feel better. Too much too soon, felt like a rebound tattoo, and there are a few I have that I have really regretted.

I just feel relieved that I have put that off, which is a huge sign. :-)

Had dinner with Husband last night, which made me feel all sad again, him too. We walked home with our arms really tightly around each other, and almost in tears. The house is back on the market, and that makes me sad too.

I am sooooo not ready to date anybody else yet. I am delaying that, too. I kind of told another coworker about my date yesterday, and wish I hadn't, as she wants to know all about it now, and there might be nothing to tell. She really loves the guy, and was thrilled. My little crush has kind of evaporated after dinner with Husband. My heart is too broken.

Fucking Mercury Retrograde! Everything feels like 2 steps back lately. My new (replacement) camera has also malfunctioned again and I can't download any photos.. Gah.

Good news is Saturn turns direct at the end of May, only a few weeks after Mercury goes forward again. Life will stop feeling like it's on hold, and I will make progress. And maybe start feeling a bit more optimistic again!

I am just so fucking tired today! I could sleep for the whole weekend.