Well, there was no other way to put that.
I sat with Master again last night, and a small roomful of people, and the descent of spirit energy started immediately. Split my head wide open, it was pretty unambiguous. And it kept coming.
Part way into the night, I had the vision of what I can only call 'The Cock Of God". This gigantic penis ejaculated into my head, dripping oozing white sweetness and energy into me. It simultaneously fucked me from top to bottom, in through my skull, and in through my pussy. I have never experienced anything like that before! A big white-light penis, splitting my entire body in half as it forced it's way through me.
At one point there was also a point of pleasure so intense, a blue light, I could sense, like an orgasm working it's way up my spine. (Funnily enough, I got out of bed this morning, and my back went out, right in that same place. Have been dosed up on the ibuprofen all day.)
My entire body was alive as Fuck. As Love.
I guess that's Tantra. I guess that's Babalon.
I guess that's me, underneath all the ego. Once all the fear, mind, doubt, shame and emotional complication has gone.
Later in the night, I felt this giant pulse of Love go shooting down the web that connects me with my Loved Ones. I particularly felt that love for my old much beloved fuck-buddy S. I will have to MSN him this morning, and see if he's up for a chat.
I am sitting with Master again tonight, just Him and I. God knows where that will take me. He is determined that my awakening will happen. More than I am. He has said he will persist in serving me this way until that's my stable every-moment experience.
At the end of the night, he invited us to talk. I just said "Holy Fucking Shit!" He grinned, looked around the room at people, and said "Now that is ecstatic speech!"
As I write this this morning, there is a fierce heat burning in my chest, and a pulsating pressure in my ajna chakra.
(Poor old UPS guy, doesn't have a clue who's been fantasizing about him recently, does he? Bless him. He was looking pretty hot this morning.)
So Master let me sneak into the hot tub late last night with Husband and a friend of ours. I guess Husband and me having sex is still off-limits, which is probably a good thing. But it was nice to spend some time that way anyway.
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