Peace

Had to share this email I sent to Master about last night's sitting. It was such an amazing evening, so totally Grace-given.
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When I came to [Husband's] house last night, I was just feeling so happy. There was no problem or concern, I was just looking forward to seeing you. When you walked into the room, immediately the [spiritual energy] descent started, and kept coming all night in strong waves, circulating around the body, causing me to move in undulations like a snake as it expanded each different part of me in turn, sometimes uncomfortable, sometimes very sexual, sometimes just as love.

It slowly became more blissful, and about 10 minutes before the end of the evening, it broke. I don’t know what happened exactly, but somehow there just was no more resistance in the body to the energy, and I just stopped moving, as my body opened up, and the energy became a column of light, and the body dropped the struggle and resistance that had been causing the movement. The circulating feeling stopped, and there was just a body full of light. I was overcome by such a sense of peace and mindlessness and freedom, and love for you.

The feeling arose in me that nobody will ever own me again. I can’t let that happen. Not from the sense of victim, but from the sense of “I won’t let that happen”. I have let it happen, and now I really can’t continue to do that again, ever, under any circumstance. And the feeling that it was never real that that was the case anyhow.

At one point, I glanced across the room at [Husband], and was overcome by such a sense of love, it was so beautiful. There was nothing else to it, no need for anything else, no attachment, just that strongly felt sense of pure love for him.

I realized why being freed from our attachments is SO important! That sense of freedom and love is EVERYTHING.

I don’t know where to start with my ‘Thank you’ this morning, my beloved Master. I love you so much. I see who you are, and you asked me, do I see who has been serving me? Yes. Only Love. Only You, as me.

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Master's reply.

The [email] from last night was the best you have written in terms of reception of spirit current, the conductivity of it, and understanding.
Synchronistically I was the freest I have ever been last night. I am involved in a very subtle letting go process. My depth is a reflection of your receptivity. We are moving hand-in-hand - liberation is the outcome.

I want to praise you for hanging with me through this past while. The signs of [liberation] are everywhere apparent. I am humbled by such demonstration of Grace.

With so much love,

[Master]
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I went to the tattooist last night, and booked a slot at 3pm on May 1st. Beltane. Perfect. The Pagan Spring fucking-festival. (At which, being an Aquarian, I figured I was conceived, albeit unintentionally).

The design needed to be altered slightly, as it's too complex to fit where it's going, at the size I want it to be, so here's what I came up with. I think the numbers might need to be a bit bigger and bolder, but this is basically it. It came to me in a flash. Perfect.

93 being the Kabbalistic number of Agape, perfect Love, and Thelema, perfect Will.