I am going home to visit family soon, and had some very hot MSN chat-sex with my fuck-buddy S this morning. Can't wait to see him!! There is a strong chance I will get good and laid on this trip!! I so need it. I have been totally sex-starved for quite a while now.
Damn, he's good, even 5,000 miles away! He's so dirty, I love it. He's a Gemini, so knows how to talk, it's a specialty of his I've always really enjoyed. Plus he can read me like a book, and always seems to know exactly what I'm in the mood for. This morning was all sensual, lots of long, deep kisses, him telling me he wanted to get me really wet, then fuck me nice and slowly, etc. He's a very vocal and imaginative lover, too, I love that.
I notice he is very uncomplicated about sex, he just enjoys it, no guilt, no shame, just gives it everything, and lets it loose.
Husband is so complicated in some ways, not in anything he does or doesn't do, but just how he relates to sex in general, he has quite a lot of shame sometimes that he just carries in his aura somehow.
A, well, we won't go there. He was a great fuck, but still had that aura of shame and puritanism about him, too, and got all complicated after we had fucked, and went into guilt about me being married, etc. Oh, and there was plenty he wasn't willing to do! It freaked him out that I wanted certain things he was just too scared to give. I didn't fit his picture of what a 'nice' woman should like or want. He wanted mommy, I think.
S doesn't give a shit, it's just a fun bodily function to him, there to be enjoyed, and if it feels good, he will do it, and I dig that. Anything goes.. Yes.. I could learn a lot from him. I have, over the years. It's such a shame sometimes that we live in different countries. But in a way, that adds to it too, we've managed to keep that excitement all these years probably because we don't see too much of each other. Because of his own lack of self-consciousness, I've always been able to open up more when I'm with him, too.
It's also funny how it never feels like 'cheating' with him, either. There's a lot of love in it. It's almost like it's him, one of my dearest soul mates, so how can it be cheating? We've been lovers on and off for the last 17 years now, and close friends all this while. I never fucked him when I was married though, apart from a few chats like we had today. So this will be the first time in over 11 years that we will have actually done the deed in person.
Instant chat-sex is an interesting thing to try to do in work... I almost came in my chair! Jesus I was so turned on. I had to take a trip to the ladies room, and it really didn't take me too long!!
Thank you S!! I love you so much, you wickedly, deliciously dirty man...
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