Comforting..

Oh my gosh. Had such a sweet Sunday with E. We went to the beach, then to his place, he cooked me mac and cheese and an excellent salad, and we hung out on the couch in front of his huge tv watching Comedy Central. It was awesome. So ordinary, but so nice and consoling.. There was a really sweet moment when we stopped on the way there for a Starbucks, and he just gently leaned against me when we were in the line, and put his arms around me. I have so missed that kind of physical affection! It almost took me by surprise. 

We also had a great conversation about mind, and the nature of the life we construct for ourselves, based on mind and illusion. He understands a lot, it's awesome.  

Had GREAT sex. 3 orgasms for me, one for him, at last. It was worth the jaw-ache..  ;-)
To be able to keep going and still be into sex after coming a few times already? That's a new one on me. Usually, I'm done for a good while after round one.  
I am pretty wiped out today though!

Sex does feel really different for me now, it's amazing! I feel SO much more sensitive, and I think that's since being kissed by Master that time a few weeks ago!  It's all just pleasure up in there now. It wasn't before, I felt pretty dead inside. I could always come through clit stimulation, generally, get enough of that, and I'd get there, but this is definitely different! My whole body was full of pleasure. Every time he moved, I could feel it in my hands and feet, even. And E looks me in the eyes when fucking me, that adds a certain something. He doesn't disappear inside his own need, he stays in relationship.

That was such a nice way to end the weekend.

I had had an evening with Master on Saturday, and he was pretty intense with me about my self-image, and how I am almost 40, and need to shed this teenager persona, with the way I dress, etc. I wear a lot of music T-shirts and hoodies and sweat pants. I dress like a boy. It's true.
Urgh, that one cut pretty deep and was very uncomfortable!

Very interesting reflection, and timely, I think. Maybe I do need to become more of a woman in the way I dress, too.