Started the Jillian Michaels 30 day Shred last night. The Equinox seemed like a good night to begin. Ouch. I am aching this morning. I need to shed that extra 2" I have gained all over. I measured myself this morning, so I know where I started on day 1. 135lbs, 21" thighs, 36" hips, 32" waist, 38" bust. That's a consistent 2" extra all over me, and an extra 15lbs, in the last year. Scary. 135lbs? 32" waist?? That's the most I have weighed since I lived on beer and pizza in college 20 years ago. That scared me.
I went to see my favourite tarot reader last night. He did some astrology with me instead of tarot, I think he prefers that. I would have liked to have seen what the cards said, but the astrology was pretty good. One thing, I can't expect much from Ex for another 6 years, in terms of him pulling his head out of his ass and growing up. He didn't say whether or not we'd be friends again before then.
On the way there, I stopped by his office, and realized that last time, it was still dark in the evenings when I got there. It was full daylight last night. I waited by the bus stop there, trying not to look conspicuous, until his office light went off. He is a creature of habit, he left at 5.35, I only had to wait 5 minutes. I panicked, and ran, when the light went off. I felt pretty stupid afterwards, but lurking in daylight isn't something I had thought about. So, I didn't see him. Only his car, and his light on. I miss that little moment every day, driving past, seeing that he is indeed still alive and at work, at least, even if I can't be a part of that any more.
6 years.. Really? Tarot reader again mentioned December as a time when I would get some satisfaction from the situation with him and Master. That's good. I don't think he remembered saying that in my last reading.
Not much more to report, that I don't already know myself. Jupiter goes into my 1st house in July, thankfully. Life will get easier over the summer. I will be more appreciated in work in the fall, and in a year, will be earning more money. Good, because there's been no raise again this year, and that's the 4th year in a row now, and it's getting old.
And there is somebody trying to make me look bad at work, but they won't succeed. That is true. I have a pain in the ass co-worker who's always examining and double-checking everything I do, looking for mistakes. Well, fuck you lady. The bosses know you are a whiny cunt. I saw an email one of them sent to another of my coworkers, she showed me what they think of her! Ha.
E is working late all week, trying to meet an impossible deadline on Thursday. I am kind of relieved in a way, it's nice to have this week to myself, for some headspace. Master's friend D should be arriving tomorrow for a couple of days.
I feel like crap today, I think I have a cold coming on. I have the beginnings of a sore throat. I hope not. I am looking forward to D's visit. I will hate to have to tell him not to come if I'm sick.
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