I have heard nothing from Ex. It's only been 2 days I guess, but it's been 2 WHOLE DAYS! I am trying so hard not to keep watching my email inbox, but.. I am.
I reached out to a whole bunch of my Facebook peeps yesterday, for some prayers, Reiki, spells cast, positive thoughts, whatever.. That was hard. I can't get through this by myself, I need a little support. One of my friends lives very close to previous Master's place, and is very sweetly spending time in the beautiful Temple there for me. That gives me a lot of comfort. I miss previous Master and my life with him so much sometimes.
It was so hard for me to write that email to my people, to ask for help from friends. I am so bad at this. But I need all the help I can get, so perhaps you could also remember me in a prayer tonight. I just want my broken heart mended. I just want the heart-connection between me and Ex to be restored. We loved each other SO much.. I know we still do. I can't give up on that. Maybe I have to, maybe not hearing from him will wake me up to that. Either way, the status quo, the silence, is getting unbearable, and something needs to change.
I had been praying for some Divine Intervention, because I can't do this by myself. I don't have the courage just to simply call him. Wherever this leads, has to be better than where I am at the moment.
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