My dear friend who is the only living soul I trust enough with this stuff to know my real identity, in a dream last night, posted a facebook post on my wall, saying, "Any man could have this woman if he wanted her, she has no self-esteem whatsoever."
All my male friends replied, suggesting themselves, or mutual male friends, old teachers, bosses, etc.
That, weirdly enough, felt empowering, in itself. At one point that would have made me angry, but lately, I am feeling the power I have, which I never knew was mine.
Aleister Crowley was very much into the image of the Whore of Babalon, the Scarlet Woman, and to him, She was Sacred in the highest degree. She was the one utterly given over, to Love all men. She was the one completely sexually liberated and strong, unashamed, true to Her own nature. She saw no man as unacceptable. She was the Goddess, worshipped since time began, all powerful.
And what has liberated Her, is Her profound submission to all. There is ultimate power in complete submission.
I know there is a way to go before I make that leap into being Her, or letting go of being me, maybe, but I have had many glimpses of what that is, and there are several men who have indeed known me as Her on occasion, in the Biblical sense, and just through feeling and intuition.
It is interesting that all religions have a sexually powerful and liberated Goddess, and only Judeo-Christianity demonizes her and creates shame and fear of that, with Lilith and Babalon.
So my friends's statement about me reveals that dual nature of ego and Shakti, and what there is to be overcome. He has been so instrumental in bringing me to that understanding these last 15 years, even when I didn't believe it or see it myself.
I am finally starting to feel that that is becoming true of me.
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