My God

Hash... Now I understand why people smoke it and have sex. I have never done that before.

I ate part of a cookie I was given by a friend with some hash in it. I am alone tonight, Husband is out, and I am baked...
Anyway, what's a girl to do, I was missing A so badly, and was on Facebook, looking at a gorgeous photo of him on there, and, well, um, got a little carried away with myself..

I had the most intense orgasm I have ever had in my life. Twice. And my heart burst open on fire, my spine and head lit up like a Christmas tree, and I experienced A as God, for more than 3 1/2 hours. I could just see that One, that Consciousness, that Love, in him. I sat, feeling total Ecstasy and Love, for a whole evening. And I realized that A loves me, as that One, so whatever happens from now on between two egos has no signficance, really, does it? Not once you experience a person as being the living God.

Whatever he does, whatever he is for me, that will always have happened, stoned or not, and I am deeply in awe of what the last 4 months loving A has brought me. Whatever there is in the future, or not, is Perfectly Ok.