More discussions on marital freedom with Husband and Friend last night. That's going really well. I completely value Friend's input. How I could ever have convinced Husband by myself to let me be free for what I needed to do, for the sake of Enlightenment, (or him me, for that matter), is a miracle.
Mind you, there was no mention of A. That's a whole different ball game I suppose. But I took our discussion at face value. Maybe that was underhanded. But, Friend knows about him, (apart from the fabulous weekend of fucking!), knows about my awakening sexual appetite. So I figured as it didn't come up, it didn't need to. Friend would have brought it up if it had. Believe me. Friend has an uncanny knack for reading me like a book. I can't do poker-faces.
I caved. I emailed A and told him I was missing him. And as I did, a fucking spider crawled across my hand! Cute little thing! (See previous post for weird spider-magick.) I got an invite to an event he's going to on Saturday. Hope I can get away!! I am missing him sorely.
I experimented last night with a bit more Reiki and sexual energy, too. He didn't comment on that this morning. Maybe I didn't get through.
I am starting my whole cycle back up of 3 weeks being totally horny, after a week of not being at all sexual. That whole cycle fascinates me. And it has worked out nicely with my time with A. I'd have hated to have not been feeling so hot when he stayed over.
I have put in motion my taking the HIV test, and will go tomorrow night to the clinic on my way home. Though the needle hole in my arm might be an issue. I think I'll tell Husband I'm shooting smack. Good to do the test, regardless of how things work out between A and I. The thought of that vasectomy and being shot full of hot come has kept me going this last week.. ;-) I hope he's going to also get tested, he said he would.
Sister thinks I'm being hormonally over sensitive at the moment, and for me not to worry about his pulling away a little. I have to trust more, take in the bigger picture, she says. Sound advice. I love her. I am definitely hormonally oversensitive.
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