AA Batteries

Things are going better with Husband. We even put our wedding rings back on again yesterday.

I still can't shake my desire to see A though, and am very pleased we're hanging out for a while on Sunday together before the party we're going to at Sister's house. It's not even about the sex, or even any 'romance' now, I just love his company, and it seems he still enjoys mine.
I think I am coming to the conclusion you can still have a successful sex life if you have AA batteries handy. That's progress, isn't it, from where I was? I think so. I still feel a bit sad though, and like some kind of social failure, that I can't have any kind of functional sex life with another human being at this point in my life... There's a bit of a stigma to that, isn't there?

Husband said a very sweet thing yesterday that must have been difficult, that he knows he can't control me, has no desire to, and if I want to "spend some time alone with A" in my new place, that is something he will have to live with and accept. (Couldn't bring himself to mention the word 'sex' but that's ok. I get that... I could feel his struggle.)

That's the fucking irony, isn't it, now A is no longer wanting to have a sexual relationship with me, and just wants us to be 'friends'...
Perhaps Husband only said that because I told him that we're not going to be fucking. Perhaps if Husband thought we were, he wouldn't have said that.. I don't know. But it was nice to hear.
If you discount the messed up irony factor.