Evan

I dreamt last night that I was waiting for my cute scrabble-playing coworker to climb into bed beside me, and instead what happened was my childhood girlfriend turned up, and I had to deal with her, without actually explaining to her that I wasn't waiting for her, I was waiting for Evan.

Woke up feeling annoyed and slightly guilty... lol And desirous of a romp with Evan. ;-)

I wonder if he has any idea I find him hot? He's so shy and sweet. I hope he does. I have been a little flirtatious, nothing serious, just enough to give him a bit of an ego boost now and again. I have no intention of pursuing it, but I would love to make him smile. He's a total love, and deserves to feel attractive. I get the feeling he doesn't feel that about himself, which is a shame. He is. He sparkles. I dig that. That's far more sexy than the few extra pounds on him isn't.

I wonder, if I was freer in myself, and not likely to get emotionally complicated, I might well find a way for a one-night stand with him. I think he'd be a lot of fun in the sack. He's a fun guy in the office. I know myself too well though. I'm not grown up enough for that yet.

My sex drive has been through the roof again this last week, it's that time in my cycle again, where I could hump anything that moves.

My girlfriend was always a pain in the ass, always got in the way, always wanted me for herself, she was so possessive of our friendship I had to slap her one day when we were 14, and she threw a tantrum when I had lunch with another friend. It's a perfect dream about her. I wish she were dead and buried. Truth is, she still annoys the piss out of me, 20 years after I left that scene. Thankfully, she has been quiet on Facebook, and I have hidden myself from being on line from her.

Incidentally, if you need to do that, it's easy. Create a list, with that one person in it, and then you can go off line in the chat box, and they don't see you're on line, when everybody else still can. It's useful!