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I think I made a breakthrough, with a little help from my friend S. I've mentioned him here before in a very early post. Basically, he is man #3 in my life. Usually, man #2. But it's an easy, open, very cool relationship. We totally adore each other, and have been good friends since I was 21, and have been occasional fuck-buddies, though, through all the time I've been married, we haven't been, we've been just friends. (And soul-mates.) One reason being, he lives in another country, which has been a blessing or else my marriage would have suffered before now. I think I've fucked him through every relationship I've had since I was 21. It's different, and never feels like adultery, I mean, it's him.. My soul-mate.
He came to visit me 18 months ago, and we took the most lovely walk in the snow, very sweet and romantic and holding hands kind of lovely.
And we only realized a few months afterwards, that we should probably have taken the opportunity to fuck like bunnies, up against a tree in the park.

So, we had totally the most hot and magical, crazy, up on the kitchen counter with things flying all over the floor kind of MSN chat sex just now. Wow, it was amazing.. I feel like I really got a good hard fucking, which I can't tell you how helpful that was. A very good servicing.. I totally love S, always have, but I think we recognise that although we're soul-mates, we'd be crap at a real committed relationship. But still we have maintained that hot steamy chemistry all these years.. He's dirty. I mean, really dirty, just what a girl like me needs.. He gives good chat.

I am in work, and had to take a brief trip to the ladies room.. Didn't take me long, and it was a very intense orgasm... And apparently, his clean up took a while...

It's interesting to discover that sexual energy really can be entirely non-localized and 'sent' over distances.. What with this, and A's disclosure the other day about what happened when he was out of town, with the Reiki.

And, you know what's wonderful, is I feel no guilt or complication about fucking S. Probably because it wasn't in the actual flesh. I might have, if he'd actually been here, but I can tell you, it did my emotional state no end of good... S is very uncomplicated about sex, it's just a matter of necessity, as far as he's concerned. He understands what I think I do not sometimes. Fucking is necessary for mental health. And fun!!!

I'm starting to see how I complicate it all, far, far too much. Take it all way too seriously. S has always been really good for me. Thank you darlin', you and your magnificent cock, for healing this heart today, and giving a girl what she needs. Job well done.

As far as A, we were going to meet on Friday, but he's now going to go climbing this weekend with friends, and will leave Friday afternoon. That's ok. Better, even, as I do think maybe I need the space. We're going to have dinner in the week, hopefully.

Husband has asked that I write A an email, requesting no contact, and cc him, so he knows I sent it. What Husband forgets, is that I can send more than one email, and I have forewarned A to ignore it, and told him why I will be writing it. If at this point, Husband feels he needs that, I can at least do that much.

But, after a damn good fucking from S, I am feeling more grounded, less hysterical, and happier. There's a lesson in that somewhere.. :-)