Smile

No reason for it, but I have suddenly started feeling unreasonably happy about tonight's date. I was feeling quite nervous earlier, and more than a little insecure, but, I dunno, I just opened up a photo I have of A and it made me smile a lot.
He's just a big, sweet, happy, goofy, sexy, horny, mountain-climbing puppydog, and there's nothing I need be insecure about.

I had lunch with Husband, he's making the effort now to do special things like that. Which is nice, but too late for anything other than friends. I tried to feel it, but could find no sexual response to him, almost sadly, in a way. Part of me wants to start feeling that again, and have my old life back. Only a part.

2 1/4 hours.

I got my HIV results back already! That was really quick. I'm negative, of course. Now A, get your test handled!